For months unending I was so hurt by what another brother in faith did to me that I didn’t even know I was angry at him. I started derailing from God’s will because of the pain I harbour in my heart but I was oblivious of the fact.
I was praying but I could only hear what I wanted to hear. Then when hatred was full blown, I started spreading the hate – unknowingly – till I got to a good friend of mine, in a bid to justify myself, he made me realize I’ve been angry.
“I wasn’t ang-” I stuttered, “I am angry.” I finally agreed.
That moment of clarity changed the story. I have been angry, I couldn’t hear from God, I have been lonely, too stubborn for God to have His way.
You cannot get hurt and keep it. It will do you more harm than the person you are directing the energy towards. If you cherish your communication with God, you will avoid things that will get you hurt and angry like a plague. This is not to say people will not test you or that you should not know when to respond to issues but you’ve got to be careful not to be bitter and stay that way.
Feelings are not always true or logical. In fact, resentment makes us act and think in foolish ways. David admitted,
When my thoughts were bitter and my feelings were hurt, I was as stupid as an animal.” – Psalm 73:21-22 [TEV] We all act beastly when hurt.
In contrast, the Bible says,
A man’s wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense.” – Proverbs 19:11 [NIV]
God,help us to follow UR will and not what our hearts wants to hear